Yesterday, during our walk at the park, I told Penny about the message that B. sent me the night before. I expressed to her my anger, my frustration, my feelings of being violated (again!), and she expressed how shocked and proud she was that I actually ignoreed him and was able to block him.
As the 4 of us (Me, my dog, her, and her unborn baby) continued our trek along the lake, she said in amazement... "He saved your life, you know. Mr. Z. saved your life. No matter how much we wanted to help you, and how many humans tried to save you from that relationship, we couldn't. It took him. It took this little doggy, it took Mr. Z. to save you."
Here's Mr. Z enjoying our trip to the park. Along him is his trendy bag that contains his water, snack, toys, and whatever else he might need for one of our adventures.
I have found myself in unhealthy relationships with others and, in turn, myself. This blog details my journey to find self-compassion: to reflect on my own role in unhealthy relationships and to focus on me. This is my attempt to look inward to become more self-aware. If my writings are relate-able to anyone, it is my hope that I can offer a sense of normalcy about wanting to feel loved and connected without losing your sense of self along the way...
Enchanted forest
Fall decoration @ Bellagio Hotel, Las Vegas, October 2010
Showing posts with label walks. Show all posts
Showing posts with label walks. Show all posts
Friday, October 7, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Daily walks
Just changed my blog design! I think I like it, but we'll have to see...
Later this afternoon, I'm going to take Mr. Z. on a walk with my pregnant best friend, Penny. She's into her 12th week and her little baby has grown from the size of a peanut to a fig... and now a lime!
Thinking about the baby brings a smile to my face and reminds me of good, positive surprises that come our way. Remember when I cried and was upset about this significant change and what it would do to our friendship? We actually hang out more now and spend more time together than before.
Here's a picture from last summer when I accidentally took a picture of myself with my phone. I quite like this photo because it captures a cute skirt that I bought at a market in Taiwan. I use the same purse today because it's small and compact, and perfect for walks in the park.
Later this afternoon, I'm going to take Mr. Z. on a walk with my pregnant best friend, Penny. She's into her 12th week and her little baby has grown from the size of a peanut to a fig... and now a lime!
Thinking about the baby brings a smile to my face and reminds me of good, positive surprises that come our way. Remember when I cried and was upset about this significant change and what it would do to our friendship? We actually hang out more now and spend more time together than before.
Here's a picture from last summer when I accidentally took a picture of myself with my phone. I quite like this photo because it captures a cute skirt that I bought at a market in Taiwan. I use the same purse today because it's small and compact, and perfect for walks in the park.
The next few weeks will be busy for me but I will try to continue taking walks with Penny and her little baby. And Mr. Z of course. It is good self-care to get our bodies moving, to be healthy with a friend, and to catch-up with each other about our lives, our families, our feelings.
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